the john needs me til 7pm tonight i have only been here since 6am whats a few hrs. just starting to feel like a normal person after being on nights for so long. the stress of life has really been getting to me. the stress of not being able to have a family has really been brothering me lately.
and yes i know it well happen when it happens.

i broke adams moms table tuesday that was a horrible day complete accident. we have had the table since 2006 anyways but adam freaked out he was like your not the one that is going to have to deal with her. (which he is right) cause i aint going to. the hose hit it just right and it fell. accidents do happen. anyways that was a really bad bad night. yesterday was so awesome adam cleaned the house and i mean like dusted, did the dishes, vaccumed, moved things around, and did laundry. so awesome to come home and just relax thank you adam.

found out adams brothers wife is pregant were not to happy about it honestly and yes im jealous. but heres the thing they fight all the time, he talks about leaving here, he talks about wanting to move to oklahoma. i dont know none of my business i wish the best for them, i just cant deal with it right now so anyways.

see lots of things my mind moves 90 to nothing at all times i know i dont make sense but oh well

good parent

working nights is such a mess my days and nights are so mixed up. feeling a little depressed right now. I miss rowen already, she goes home on mondays. Why wont her mom let me keep her adam and i could provide her such a good life. and my family would be such a good family for her. is it wrong that i want to provide someone elses child a life. She is two and so cute, kind, loving, a fast learner and just wants to be loved, I honestly believe that her mom may love her but doesnt care to be a mom. What is a mom?? You know just b/c you dont keep your child clean and in good clothes or dont work or have a husband, does that mean you a bad parent? what makes a good parent? a good parent is someone that provides a safe, clean, honest, healthy life

hum thats about it, a little mad at adam, sometime he just really gets on my last nerves. guess what im actually thinking about the moving idea but im not about to let adam know that. it just makes me sick to my stomach to think about not seeing my mommy everyday.

we bought a pool wednesday and a grill my backyard is looking good just need mowed now. i love the water.
work is a mess crap is not working pulse the women seem to be having some issues but havent firgured it out yet.

my husband ask me again last night if we could move to ohio, why why and one more time why. i dont want to leave oklahoma i love my home. okie breed, okie born, okie i shall die. and i really do understand he want to get to know his family but i dont want to live any where else. especially a small town with no jobs

Home from vaction what a trip, so glad to be home missed my dog and my mom. I have never seen my husband so happy i loved watching him. We went to Ohio to meet his family you see his dad died in march of 1985, adam had never meet his grandpa or cousins, or aunts, and he also had an older brother. so neat memories ill have forever.

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anyone know what that is? well I do its sexy time. haha sitting at brandys having so much fun laughing and thinking about old time and new times. if only ours lifes would have went this way in the beginning

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been reading old post, oh lord my grammer has gotten way better and my life is 10 times better. Im so lost for words. what do i say except WOW

Its been a long time, so i thought i would try this again. so much stress right now. going on vacation in 5 days oh I'm a perfections. Still not sure if were going to have a rental car which is stressing me out but my mom and Adam says stop stressing over small things its all going to work out. Adam got a ticket today cause our tag was expired my bad just haven't had the money so I'm using some of my vacation money tomorrow to get a new tag.
My sister well her husband left her the other night and i totally understand. She also needs to take a few deep breaths.
Hunter is getting so big. He is going to be 5 in August, Would like to go to the zoo for his bday.